Still Waiting

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

What makes a man:

[Shane:]
Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

[Mark:]
Some find it each and every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry

You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

So, impossible as it may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

[Shane:]
Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place

[Mark:]
It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

[Shane:]
And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends

[Mark:]
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings

whoever sings this to me n i'll cry. i'll be damn touched.. =( so sweet de lyrics.. =s

anyways.. haiz.. im so troubled nowadays.. dunno why.. jy.. cheer up k? when u feel lost, please, please, don't think abt him anymore.. think of ur family, friends, and how much hope they pin on u.. i really hope this can motivate you.. really.. though sometimes u may sidetrack and think of him.. but do come back.. k?

sighs.. so stressed now.. EOM not handed in, deadline on nxt monday.. haiz.. bloody PW.. what the f is that. this PW is worth swearing at. haiz. somemore i've been thinking of him now and then. haha.. influenced from jy bah.. but this time i'll try to stay stronger for a longer time.. at least till after promos. n then time will pass very very fast.. then soon it'll be end of his o's. wonder by then will we have anymore stuff to talk abt? wld he have fallen for another girl? or has he already? ok la.. stop wondering so much.. but well.. did we left an unfinished business? sighs.. when will be the time to talk abt it.. i've been acting too optimistic abt this unfinished business.. i'm so afraid i'll be disappointed and heart broken if the unfinished business is negative.. =(

i think i'm just too optimistic that i sometimes bury myself with comfortable lies, and refusing to face the truth. and thus, i often end up disappointed.

actually.. does anyone know what's love? you see friendster bulletin, chainletters.. everything talk about bf and gf love.. did they ever talk abt parents great great love that is more practical and reasonable? did they talk abt the simplicity of friends that can make you feel the words? well.. maybe they did, but one will never know unless they experience it. ok, take an example i've repeated upteem times.. my sis once told me, that i should never never die for a guy. why? because if my mum knows i've actually died so silly-ly for a guy, she'll be so so so heartbroken. reason is simple, because she loves me a million times more then the guy does. yes this is damn true, and its always sending tears to my eyes whenever i recall that scenario.. was crying like shit back then.. =s lol.. another chou shi again xD

well.. simple reason enough right? when u get into the worst trouble, you friend may act busy, your bf may run away, but i tell you, your parents will always always be there. this is often the reason i feel so damn guilty abt after i quarrelled with my mum.. damn... today quarrel with her again lor.. trivial one la.. cos she dun trust me enuff, or she's too worried. i choose to believe she;s too worried.

why? arghhh.. becos i forgot to bring phone out again, den got sms keep on ringing non stop, den she see my inbox, see all gabriel cos no one sms me, or rather hui's sms all push down."-_-.. den my mum see guy's name, suspect again. so i went home this afternoon, my mum ask me who is gabriel "-_- tian ahhh.. can trust me more or not. haiz.. maybe she's worried i'll get hurt by some stupid guys lo.. anyways.. back to the story, i told her.. friend nia!!!I GOT NO BOYFRIEND>>> SINGLE SINGLE SINGLE SINGLE "-_-.. ahhh sounds so naggy right? she still dun believe.

den at night i was talking to chang yu on the phone.. was telling him that i saw guo lao shi!!! and know where he lives?? just a block behind my flat. DAMN CLOSE LORR!!! den was chatting to cy abt wad happened.. den only chat for 20 minutes right.. daddy n mummy nag more then 10 times to tell me to go bathe "-_- ahhhh.... den i hang up la.. pissed man.. den mummy say.. talking to who?!?! of cos i replied BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND lo.. den my mum immediately change of tone lor.. "WHO!?!" "-_- diaoz.. den i say.. chang yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu den i walk away.. ahhh so dammit one lor.. feel like screaming away... can believe me or not la!!!diaoz one leh.. kk la i know u see my phone display pic is a guy lor.. dun worry so much can.. occassionally can miss right? "-_- aiya i no boyfriend laaaaa i decide to remain single at least till end of this year. "-_-.......

really diaoz lor.. see how much lame face i put there liao.. argh...

haiz.. and nowadays the sky is cloudless(the past two nights) but i see no stars... zzz =s haiz.. actually one should look up into the sky more.. cos you may find something surprising =) haha.. or u can actually stretch ur neck too XD exerciseee

haiyerr..i will go on an overseas trip with my bf one day.. den look at the stars. ok, to go finland and see aurora is when we are married for several years, cos money not enuff yet. or honeymoon there oso good lehh.. hahaz...

haiz.. there'll be so much work for me tmr.. tata... i;m gonna make it... yay right.

yawns... nights..

-when are you coming back? ;